If You Ever Come Back // The Script

If you're standing with your suitcase
But you can't step on the train
Everything's the way that you left it I still haven't slept yet

And if you're covering your face now
But you just can't hide the pain
Still setting two plates on the counter but eating without 'cha

If the truth is you're a liar
When you say that you're okay
I'm sleepin on your side of the bed goin' out of my head now

And if you're out there try'na move on
But somethin' pulls you back again
I'm sitting here try to persuade you like your in the same room

And I wish you could give me the cold shoulder
And I wish you could still give me a hard time
And I wish I could still wish it was over
But even if wishing is a waste of time
Even if I never cross your mind

I'll leave the door on the latch
If you ever come back if you ever come back
There'll be a light in the hall and a key under the mat
If you ever come back
There'll be a smile on my face and the kettle on
And it will be just like you were never gone
There'll be a light in the hall and a key under the mat
If you ever come back if you ever come back now
Oh if you ever come back if you ever come back now

Now they say I'm wasting my time
'Cause you're never commin home
But they used to say the world was flat but how wrong was that now

And by leavin' my door open
I'm risking everythin' I own
There's nothin' I can lose in a break-in that you haven't taken

And I wish you could give me the cold shoulder
And I wish you can still give me a hard time
And I wish I could still wish it was over
But even if wishing is a waste of time
Even if I never cross your mind

I'll leave the door on the latch
If you ever come back if you ever come back
There'll be a light in the hall and a key under the mat
If you ever come back
There'll be a smile on my face and the kettle on
And it will be just like you were never gone
There'll be a light in the hall and a key under the mat
If you ever come back if you ever come back now
Oh if you ever come back if you ever come back now

If it's the fighting you remember or the little things you miss
I know you're out there somewhere so just remember this
If it's the fighting you remember or the little things you miss
Oh just remember this, oh just remember this

I'll leave the door on the latch
If you ever come back if you ever come back
There'll be a light in the hall and a key under the mat
If you ever come back
There'll be a smile on my face and the kettle on
And it will be just like you were never gone
There'll be a light in the hall and a key under the mat
If you ever come back if you ever come back now
Oh if you ever come back if you ever come back now

And it will be just like you were never gone
And it will be just like you were never gone
And it will be just like you were never gone
If you ever come back if you ever come back now~

-cries-

I am..

somebody.. and not a shadow.. :')


oh.. -hides my tears..-

madness?!

Okay. I'll be free-blogging for a while. I can't make a formal one because I... don't know. I'm worried, I just hope that he is okay.

I must be able to change myself, in any way.. else I'll not only end up destroying myself, I'd also destroy..him..

I don't want that to happen, especially that this is a stressful week, and we are nervous about a lot of things. Oh 2011, why?? -_________-

Well, I'm lucky because I didn't have much of an asthma attack, just a  few coughs. And I am very lucky that I'm alive, with him.. even though he's not sitting next to me right now.

and yes, I'm still asking ...who am I?..